update
I have an appointment to be evaluated for C.B.T. Not sure what all this involves but keeping an open mind. The one a day tablet is only 10ml so not making a difference, hoping the transition to 20ml goes smoothly.
hospital
Today I had an appointment at the Maudsley. For anyone that doesnt know its a hospital that deals with mental health and is about the only place that deals in adult A.D.D. Downside is I live in Essex and the hospitals in sth london.
the Dr kept me waiting for 10 minutes! Helloooo, doesnt he know I have A.D.D?!
After rehashing my details and issues we agreed on a meds plan and is suggesting counselling, I apparently will get an appt for 6 mths time, this is a result as its been about a year since i initially saw him and he was supposed to put through the counselling request then!!!!
WOW
been approached to talk to some people about making a tv documentary! Meeting next week. Im not the type to want to be on tv, far too shy. However Im wondering if it might be helpful to other people to see what our life is like and what we go through.
Life over the last few days have been a bit up and down. Had to deal with an accident whilst at work on Sunday, oh and also had to help a man who had collapsed on the A2 on Friday. it’s amazing what you can do when faced with an emergency!
lots of rain so the allotment has taken a back seat.
We had some stress over the flat. tenant gave one months notice and we havnt had a sniff of a buyer yet, so if he does move out I have to pay the rent, not sure how, when the amount is more than i actually earn in a month. Please universe- Get us a buyer soon!!! ( well, if it works for Noel Edmonds, it’s worth a try!)
Today is a good day, well, it was whilst over the allotment, pretty much went tits up once I came back
OW, still hurt. my neck is really painful, and my knees are still giving me jip. I foresee another trip to the quack. Still, at least i can go back to work andstart earning again. the joys of a zero hours contract- no bloody sick pay. This country is really crap at supporting working parents.
FLU
I never knew it was possible to be so ill, to be in this much pain, and still be alive and not on various antibiotics.
My joints hurt, they were so painful couldn’t walk up the stairs. I had to crawl on my elbows.
I am so happy to feel better, though I’m not sure i could feel worse than I did.
life without meds. The ceiling hasn’t fallen in, I havn’t fell apart at work. Holding it together at home( I don’t count the bout of desparate sobbing this morning when I couldn’t sew my son’s costume) I do know that my concentration isnt as good as with the tablets but I feel more ME!
I am sooooo tired. i am not well and the nightshifts are messing up my body clock. I just want to sleep. I think im sliding into the pits of despair and im scrabbling at the sides to try and stop the fall but it dont seem to be helping. I don’t know if im tired, depressed or both, which way is up? All I want is to be able to stay in bed and not have to get up, I don’t want much but this little thing- it’s like im asking for the impossible. i really need to hear from the hospital, im not sure how much i can take. No meds for 3 days because im tired and working weird shifts and cos i feel ill, not really noticing a difference or maybe thats why i feel so shit?
